First time celebrating pover and I need help!?

My dear, the rabbi is right (for now) since he realizes your position better than we. I myself am Jewish (you may view My Questions & Answers); however, I attended St. Joseph's University and La Salle College in Philadelphia, and I had the greatest admiration for the priests and brothers. Perhaps you identify more with our mentality than our religion, which isn't to say that you cannot keep our mitzvot although you will need to understand them, as well as how they differ from those practiced under Catholicism...in short you will have to put yourself in Jesus' shoes and understand why he left Judaism to go in his direction. For the time being you should Honor Your Parents as well as read the Book of Ruth, which we shall be reciting in 7 weeks.